Friday, October 2, 2026

Interrupting My Paddle

Last week I missed my weekly paddle so it was almost two weeks to the day when I wheeled the kayak down to the beach on a grey but calm morning. It would be a 20 kilometre day. If we aren’t surfing or doing a downwinder, it’s a 20 kilometre day. I went south for no good reason other than downwind season is coming and we always go north on those days.




Near Circuit Beach, I noticed a very odd looking boat about a kilometre off-shore. It was, of course, Project Interrupt, the boat built from marine debris by Samuel McLennan from Tasmania. After a chat, and me taking photos of him (with permission) and Samuel taking pictures of me (also with permission), I continued south.




It was lumpy, bumpy and strangely reminiscent of the day we paddled north from Dunk Island recently. The sort of day you think “This is going to take forever.” It wasn’t forever, but it was a slow 20 kilometres. As often happens, I was tempted to stop early, but, as always happens, I didn’t.

Wednesday, September 30, 2026

I Know It When I See It: Journeys Into Mental Health

The old adage about pornography was always “I know it when I see it.” The same holds true for disorders of the mind. There is such a range of human behaviour, most of it adaptive in at least one particular circumstance, that defining mental disorders has always presented a challenge. Our knowledge of the mind and behaviour is so far behind our knowledge of human physiology that, to a dispassionate observer, our categories and treatments appear as primitive as belief in the four humours theory of disease which dominated medical thought for 2,000 years. In many instances, our expertise is primitive and based on untested and untestable theories. Mental disorders, in absence conditions such as reactive depression (which will pass on it’s own), are notoriously hard to treat. Medications are imperfect, imprecise and cause side effects just as debilitating as the disease itself, and cognitive therapies, such as CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) while offering the best option for many conditions are constrained by the need for the sufferer to have insight into their own condition, a characteristic which is notably absent in many of the mental disorders.

In the modern world, the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM-5) of the American Psychiatric Association has become the bible of diagnosis. The World Health Organisation has a similar categorisation scheme (International Classification of Disease-11) and the overlap between the two is considerable. The DSM is now on Volume Five, and, with each volume produced, the categories and range of mental conditions has widened. It is now – almost literally – possible to diagnose anyone with a mental disorder, so broad and expansive have the categories become. At a certain point, the nosology itself becomes disordered. Not everyone who fidgets has ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder), not everyone who feels sad, has Depression, and not everyone who is uncomfortable in large social groupings has Social Anxiety Disorder.




The original intent of the DSM was to categorise the most serious mental disorders to allow a common language and treatment across providers, and to facilitate charging a fee for treatment. As with many branches of medicine, the profit motive can easily commandeer the best intentions, and, in the business of treating mental disorders, the hijack is very nearly complete. Depression, for example, can now be diagnosed after as little as two weeks. This, of course, expands the pool of patients who can be prescribed treatment and medication from a small percentage of the population to a much larger and broader cohort. But it is not just business which drives the expansion of diagnostic categories, “patient” advocacy groups are also invested in expanding the pool of mental disorders to gain more services and, in many cases, more political power.

Most mental disorders, however, are still diagnosed on the basis of how much they impact the individuals life. This allows a spectrum of behaviour to be considered normal, while the extreme outliers are the focus of diagnosis and treatment. This is, of course, eminently sensible, because, as with pornography, we all recognise the extreme ends of human behaviour when we see them. Washing your hands before preparing meals or after using the toilet is completely logical and sensible behaviour. Washing your hands fifty times in one hour in a very circumscribed routine no longer provides any benefit and is actually harmful.




The paradoxical feature of mental illness in the post-modern world is that we have expanded our categories of mental disorders such that anyone with any quirk of behaviour (and we all have quirks) can now diagnose themselves with something – the most popular currently are ADHD, autism or more properly Autism Spectrum Disorder (this allows a diagnosis without any impact on your life – real autism is extremely debilitating), and the wonderful catch all “neurodivergent” – without any requirement that a cure be sought after or attained. With one of these popular mental disorders we can exist happily in our uniqueness without the burdensome knowledge that our disorder is limiting our lives in any way. In fact, our specialness becomes something to celebrate as “diversity.”

Contrast this to pathological conditions of the body, such as cancer. No-one celebrates a cancer diagnosis and, once diagnosed, all but a very small minority of the population pursue a cure as aggressively as possible. The post-modern mental health industry has abandoned this model. Treatment and counselling is no longer about challenging disordered beliefs to improve the individuals life and has become instead a parade of affirmative action and the importance of “lived experience” which over-rides the very real consequences of untreated mental illnesses.




And again, we all know it when we see it. We all recognise when obsessive and extreme behaviours are causing real disorder, dysfunction and distress in the sufferers. At the extreme ends, these disorders shorten people’s lives, while in the muddy middle, life becomes a difficult dance of indulging obsessive behaviours which immensely reduce quality, if not quantity of life, and have very real and often physical sequelae. To the outside observer, this is obvious, to the ego-syntonic sufferer their behaviour is eminently defensible and, is frequently affirmed and even facilitated by mental health professionals as a legitimate “lived experience” which provides a unique but not pathological way of coping.

This is an extreme disservice to the afflicted. The behaviours do provide some kind of mental relief to the person affected, just as a hit of smack reduces withdrawal symptoms in the addict, but no-one whose life is dominated by the outliers of human behaviour is in anyway “living their best lives.” They are, in fact, as much victims of compulsion as drug or alcohol addicts. Treatment is painful. Entire fabrications and belief systems have to be dismantled and replaced with more adaptive coping mechanisms, and anyone who has done any mental work themselves understands that rehabilitating unproductive and unhelpful beliefs and habits is much, much harder than similar physical effort. Cancer treatments are painful, debilitating, fraught with unintentional side-effects, and, if improperly managed, fatal, and yet patients and providers alike pursue treatment with vigour. We should demand no less of mental health patients and providers.




Further reading:

The Age of Diagnosis: Sickness, Health and Why Medicine Has Gone To Far. Dr Suzanne O’Sullivan.

Saving Normal: An Insider’s Revolt Against Out-of-control Psychiatric Diagnosis. Dr Allen Francis.

The Repressed Memory Epidemic. Mark Pendergrast.

The Age of Diagnosis: Our Our Obsession with Medical Labels Is Making Us Sicker. Dr Suzanne O’Sullivan.

Saturday, September 26, 2026

Transition into Training: Week Four, Something Never Change

Another week where I bumped up my volume beyond my prescribed plan! It’s true some things never change. No adverse effects except that Saturday was a very high gravity day (also known as the day after leg day).




I was in Canberra on Saturday to help a friend who happens to live within minutes of both Mount Majura and Mount Ainslie and had the opportunity to walk up Mount Ainslie. The view from the top is really outstanding as the viewpoint is positioned to look down on Capital Hill and Parliament House.   






Monday, September 21, 2026

Women's Riding

I rode with the women yesterday. In my world, this is really significant. Occasionally, but increasingly rarely, I paddle with women, but, since I left Canada in 2012, I haven’t, even once, climbed or skied with another woman! I have done one or two walks along local trails, but only one real bushwalk in all that time. Astonishing isn’t it?

There are a lot of women bicyclists on the south coast. The Eurobug cycle group has many women members but I’m not a fan of bombing up and down fire-trails (most Eurobug rides are loops around fire trails), so, after attending a few times I gave that up. I’m not one of those people who can do things they don’t really like simply to fit in or socialize. In truth, I’ve never been a fan of the “women only” adventures (which in 2026 can now include men who think they are a women), but I have to admit they have a place.




That place, for me, is mountain biking. I’ve got a lot more chance of hanging with the lads kayaking, climbing or skiing, but very little chance of hanging with the men mountain biking unless the men are completely untrained. Mountain biking is a power sport. The faster you can ride the easier the descents and you have to keep the bicycle moving uphill or you’ll stall out. Men, owing to bigger frames, more muscle, denser bones, bigger lungs (etc., etc.) can generate more power than women (on average).




The local mountain bike club runs a women’s cycle morning about once a month. It is generally on a Sunday and as I usually paddle on Sundays I had not attended any events. But, the numbers for my Sunday paddle have dwindled so much (as to approach zero attendees) that this weekend we paddled on Saturday and I left home at 7:30 am on Sunday to ride from home up to ridge top above the Botanic Gardens and down to meet the women’s group at 8:30 am. That distance doesn’t actually take me an hour but I wanted to allow a little recovery time before the ride started as I feared I might be the only person on an analog bicycle.





There were three analog bikes among the nine riders, both younger than me but hopefully I wouldn’t be too slow. A lot of people who ride down this way ride a lot whereas I ride about once a week. To my delight, I was not the slowest on the uphills, but I am pretty sure I was slowest on the downhills. Somebody has to be slowest and social rides are just that social rides. No-one minds waiting a minute or two. Although I have zero mountain biking technique skills, I am used to riding straight through without a break and that was the strength I was able to bring.




After the ride we had drinks at the delightful cafe in the Botanic Gardens. I often take visitors there as the gardens are lovely with a variety of walks, and the cafe has a big wrap around deck where you can sit overlooking the flora and fauna. The rest of the women were finished riding but, of course, I still had a few hills to go on the ride home. My legs were a bit cooked by the time I got home as I had ridden 28 kilometres with 700 metres of gain. It’s not the distance that flogs your legs, it’s the elevation gain.

Friday, September 18, 2026

Transition into Training: Week Three

Week three felt like real training. Two paddle days this week but that is only because I bumped Sunday to Saturday so I can ride with the women’s mountain bike group on Sunday. Saturday was hot and windless, so a really good day for surfing on the Batemans Bay bar where we were getting 400 metre runs! The tide was coming in though so it was a bit more work to get out.




I took the train to Sydney to see my very, very old Mum, so that ate into my time a bit and is surprisingly wearisome. From a full body circuit style strength workout I switched back to a lower body/upper body compound lifting schedule. I really want to hang onto whatever muscle I currently have. Next week the volume goes up 10% but I’ve actually already put the volume up with no problems.




Sunday, September 13, 2026

12 Seconds of Weightlessness

A long, long time ago, Rick Collier and I, with my young dog Kumo, walked and skied 50 kilometres in two days from the winter gate on Highway 66 out to Highway 40 near Evan Thomas Creek. It was February, in Alberta, pre-2000, which meant that the snowpack, where there was snow, was a facetted mess and, it was, as we would say in Alberta in February, fucking cold. I think it was around minus 25 overnight and, as it was February, we got no sun until we finally skied out to the wider Evan Thomas Valley.


Kumo with make shift sunglasses 
on the Maligne Range traverse


We walked at least 20 kilometres of the 50 kilometres carrying skis because there was no snow at all until we got way up the Little Elbow River where the snow was knee to hip deep but so facetted that you fell right through to the bottom. It was tough yacker for Rick and I, but tougher for my dog because even when Rick and I could ski, the snow was so facetted that we couldn’t pack it down for Kumo. All the way, Rick kept telling me that dogs could work so hard their hearts could explode. The first sign of this, according to Rick, was a blue tongue. I became convinced my dog had a blue tongue and spent the last 30 kilometres of the trip checking Kumo’s tongue. It was such a miserable trip that Rick and I were barely speaking when we finally slunk out onto Highway 40 but any hard feelings were soon forgotten and we did many more trips together over the years.


Rick at the start of the Maligne Range traverse

On downwind paddles, when I’m trying to get the kayak moving fast enough to catch runners, I feel like Kumo all those years ago. Working so hard that if I had oxygen to spare I would wonder if my heart is going to explode, all for a 12 or so seconds of weightlessness when the kayak spurts forward and runs ahead at close to double my normal paddling speed. Out of 20 kilometres today, I caught probably 10 to 15 really good runners (it wasn’t windy enough) but they were all worth it.

Wednesday, September 9, 2026

Transition into Training: Weeks One and Two

Continuity. Gradualness. Modulation. Scott Johnston, Training for the New Alpinism

I’m not sure I need to “transition” into training as I never stop training but, in my 63rd year I have been forced to admit I am not unbreakable. Especially, I want to avoid any tendon or ligament injuries such as I had in Tasmania earlier this year which appeared out of nowhere and interfered greatly with my travel plans.





Scott Johnston in Training for the New Alpinism recommends that the transition period last between 6 to 8 weeks and begin at a volume that is half of the average of last years training volume. If you don’t have a training log, you’ll have trouble knowing what this volume is but, I have both a training log and a Garmin watch so I was easily able to look up my volume on Garmin’s Connect application.




Last year, this came in at about 620 hours but that does not include strength training or rock climbing. It includes only cycling, paddling and walking. That comes out to about 12 hours per week, but includes an awful lot of paddling, which is good endurance training, but not for carrying yourself and a pack up and down big hills. In an average month in 2026, my “on feet” time was about 22 hours per month (about the same kayaking and much less mountain biking). There is some consistency there, so I settled on 2.5 hours per week on feet for my first three weeks of the transition period. On top of that, I continue to paddle and mountain bike one day per week.




For strength training, I am using Johnston’s strength and core circuit in addition to all ten glute, core and hip exercises that I do daily to prevent a recurrence of my hip injury. Because I had the best part of a month off over the Queensland trip I started these at one circuit in week one, then moved to two circuits in week two (where I am currently) and will finish up at three circuits for the rehab/prehab exercises in week three but will get to four circuits for strength in week four. And, I started back on the climbing wall, which is always the hardest training to resume as this is my weakest discipline.

Here is what week two looked like:




This feels like frustratingly little training and in my younger and more resilient days I would simply ignore the plan and increase both volume and intensity until I felt suitably tired and sore, but feeling tired and sore is not an indication that you are actually getting fitter and stronger. Often, you are simply getting tired and sore. Muscle is built at rest, or at least that’s what the experts say.